She fought till the end............

A couple of hours ago, I was all in a happy mood. Yay no work tomorrow and I can sleep in late. Getting ready for bed but I decided to check my yahoo email. As I was reading my little brother Marc's email, I was suddenly in shock ! My sister in law died of breast cancer Friday night.... We all know this is coming and I always told Mike that I am just waiting for them to let me know and yet it comes to me as a shock. It felt as if I am a soldier not ready to go to a war. I am very very sad about her fate. I am very very sad too for the loss of my niece and nephew's mother. And I am deeply sorrow for my oldest brother to loss a good wife who stand by him all the years of their marriage. Sometimes life seems not to be fair. Why does she has to be. Grace love life, it's simplicity. Giggles to all my news and updates about Dylan. I told her about all the stages of my pregnancy with Dylan and up to our last email which is Dylan's birthday whereabouts. She is always excited to hear news about us. And now that she is gone, who will email me as often as she can just to ask "how am I doing" ? I never realize this just now...

It hurts to think that for those people who wants to live longer dont get the chance and yet some people just waste their lives. I know Grace fought for her life till the end but her precious and tired body cannot take it anymore.

I cannot sleep just because I am in denial nor in acceptance that she's gone for good. I am so worried about their two young kids who never get to enjoy their mother as much as they would. For my brother who dearly loves his wife and for him to see her suffer and die. I dont think I can bear to see all of that.

Grace, I know you want to live longer and see your kids grow, I am sorry that you never get to see that anymore. I know that you would like to get better but your poor body is just tired and weary. May you be forever young and beautiful where ever you are as you look down on us everyday. Rest in peace.